Perfect Bliss of Silence

You think you know words? Time to feel ridiculous and absurd. Outclassed, outwitted, signed over, and double fitted. Sometimes it takes something beautiful and pure to add a little focus to the hideously obscure. Conjecture and introspective, a blight of today's corrective. Mind not the apathetic masses, double vision through hate layered glasses. Sentimental thoughts and simple creeds could shine the light upon your most shadowed dreams. If one would stand and speak for few, that voice would be warranted and overdue, a slap in the face of a superior race. So tiny we must seem to the eyes of the unseen, as we plunder innocence and auction our greed. Easy to forget how to be alive, that the same burgundy seeps from veins that coincide with the neighbor we never speak to and the child we vicariously project through. Fathers have left and mothers have wept over broken homes, in a world where home is synonymous with being alone. I, for one, am tired of a world coming undone, so as a single entity I will live free, love those who passionately love me, and when I die I'll stare with vacant eyes because I'll have left behind all the ugliness for the perfect bliss of utter silence.

inspiration: http://youtu.be/0D2B2grxEAI

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govinatr 2014-08-15 16:10:39

I splooge my babies into nonexistence to the sweet sweet enchanting sound of unicorn farts

ttbloodlusttt 2014-08-15 16:10:39

That's awfully sweet <3 Your insight and effort has me reeling... or maybe that's the noxious fumes from the unicorn's organic sewer... either way, thanks for stopping by!

VicariousE 2014-08-15 19:47:18

That's some freestyle (video). Reminds me of how I named my show.. it was from an episode of Star Trek: The Next Generation. Data was being put down and probed by Starfleet, and Whoopi Goldberg's character saw the situation for what it was: mass produced Datas, "..whole generations of disposable people." It actually came to me in a dream, then I remembered where I heard it. Then the show was born.

Did.. did you just get a dozen fans in the past few days?! Your words are as powerful as your drawings :)

ttbloodlusttt 2014-08-15 19:47:18

Naw. I had 9 or 10 fans for a while and I have TheHeartgrinder to thank for quite a few of them. Thank you for the compliment ^_^ That other people might enjoy my work is merely a bonus. There are a few people who inspire or influence my vision, and sometimes that vision is expressed in words and other times with pencils. I really have no aim, I just enjoy creating.

I used to watch Star Trek all the time, I recall the origin of Data and I remember thinking it was sad because Data was my favorite charater (beside my girl crush on Capt Picard - don't even ask because I have no clue about the why @_@). That's pretty awesome though, so many amazing ideas freom to me as I am about to fall asleep, in dreams, or as I'm waking up and too groggy to remember them later. In middle school I used to keep a journal by my bed to document my dreams.

VicariousE 2014-08-19 02:10:19

I tried to keep up with documenting dreams too. To me, they all seem like snapshots of my life, not necessarily in this timeline, but other, stranger ones, if only fate would loosen its belt...

ttbloodlusttt 2014-08-19 02:10:19

No I don't have dual citizenship. I grew up in Illinois, traveled to Canada and ended up marrying a Canadian. It didn't work out so I moved back to the US.

I have some of the most messed up dreams... some of them are nightmares but those ones don't bother me typically. No, I haven't checked out publishers yet. I am taking it one day at a time right now since I have a lot on my plate. I don't have a lot of time to invest in twenty different things; relationships (any), art, music, writing, work, my son, other problems - not in that order. Some days it's like I have it all planned to the minute.

Then I tell myself I'll just take a short nap... and then I wake up 4 hours later and forced to made a head first rush through the rest of the day.

*sighs*

VicariousE 2014-08-19 21:26:04

Yeah, I've been 'sleeping' the same way lately :\ Bad enough I'm a light sleeper... It's really worth it to get a solid 6-7 hours of sleep, and at night too. Amazing how much the sun helps us.... all that free vitamin D, lighting....

ttbloodlusttt 2014-08-19 21:26:04

I hiss at the sunlight regularly... however, I do feel better when I get some sunlight. Getting sleep helps with a lot of things, namely and because I'm a woman and it concerns me, weight loss :P I don't like sleeping. I go through some pretty rough bouts of insomnia and it's horrible. I become completely antisocial.

VicariousE 2014-08-19 22:18:39

Since this past winter, I've 'hit the wall' when it comes to weight, and being awake more, is just more time to screw myself up. These days I'm not too busy, but all the punch clock jobs I've had, seem to be 2nd and third shift. The worst was midnight till 6am, 6 days a week. Getting out around 10/11pm was okay, no traffic or annoying phone calls at home..

ttbloodlusttt 2014-08-19 22:18:39

I finally caught a break and got a job during day to evening. Noon to 8:30 pm most days and 9-5 Saturday. It's an office-y job and when it's slow I get to work on my school assignments. My boss is pretty chill about it. To be honest I've probably gained a few pounds. I'm going through a shitty moving situation and the strain of it is taking its toll on my amount of fucks being given currently.

VicariousE 2014-08-19 22:32:44

I'll have 3-6 months to move out of state, after the farm's sold... no idea how much I'll have (or when), no idea where to go. I'd like to keep farming, but it's always a gamble. I can't lift more than 30 pounds thanks to an operation last year, one which I screwed up :\ I never minded doing shitty cleaning jobs or dirty construction work, but the pay for that these days is just awful.

ttbloodlusttt 2014-08-19 22:32:44

Jeez, yeah that sounds rough. I do hope you sort it out. The amount of stress job hunting and moving brings is horrible. I feel like closing my eyes and sleeping forever some days, just to save myself the immense burden of bullshit. I'm glad I don't listen to the nagging demon in my brain that encourages me to do bad things that would ruin my life.

Pay for almost any job sucks. T_T

VicariousE 2014-08-20 05:44:01

Yeah, I'm pissed at how badly things have gotten since 9/11. The years before that were almost passable, still room to make a buck in growing fields. Now we're reduced to a 'service' based economy. Most of Canada seems to be doing pretty well, though they don't take kindly to outsiders, like the US should...

Zoidfreak 2015-04-06 07:40:53

Your poem is definatly better than your inspiration.

You seem to convey your ideas quite well compared to soo many other things I see.
The rhymes are also fine and for the most part they don't feel forced as such.

ttbloodlusttt 2015-04-06 07:40:53

Thank you. Thoughts creep up on me and poems happen.
Sometimes I am surprised by what I've managed to create.
Even more surprised that anyone took the time to read it.
I appreciate your time.